This morning I woke up not anxious for the first time since I started taking the Cipralex. It was nice. Unfortunately after I went to the bathroom, then crawled back into bed, my heart started pounding and I started thinking about way too much stuff and I spent the next hour trying to calm myself.
I think most of the other side effects are dying down. My chest still aches constantly. Hope that goes away soon.
I've had a couple friends wondering about my use of the word anorexia - I am using it in the sense of the definition "a prolonged loss of appetite" rather than the more commonly-known anorexia nervosa, which is the eating disorder where a person purposely starves his or her body due to body image issues.
I think the eating is going well. I am never hungry, but I try to eat something anytime I think of it. I am learning what I can consume that has high calories in a small package. Yesterday I finally was able to eat over 2000 calories without feeling disgusting. I didn't feel great, but it wasn't as bad as I feel most nights by bedtime.
My mom has been here for a few days and I am so thankful. I think her presence is really helping me a lot. I'm trying not to think about the fact that she'll be leaving too soon!